Taking the First step.

“You will not worry how things will turn out, because it is not personal - it is universal.”

                                                                                                              ~ Mooji 

The Fear had me tight in my body, the limiting self beliefs of not being capable had me captured in the darkness of the subconscious mind.

 … Until the breakdown, where the physical body wasn’t able to move and I starved myself to get the answers from the mystical realms of the Universe. I got on my knees of despair, praying in agony, seeing that the crossroads I am standing on is still a crossroads and I am not getting any clarity. Not getting any answers, I started to look outside of myself. I called for a reading to an astrologer named Lana. I heard some hints, but that did not satisfy my need to know exactly what I am supposed to do. I inquired if there is any particular message for me; she said: -”one thing I see is that many lifetimes you  have been meditating and living in the ashrams and temples and the only reason why you descended into this existence is for you to ignite the inner flame and start to create.”

 She advised me to get myself around powerful people that are here in creative action. Get inspired, baby, get yourself out there and do something meaningful! All of that made a great sense as I have been experiencing the inner calling of a life with purpose. Knowing that I got to do something meaningful is constantly whispering in my ears. 

I got myself into another call with the Tarot card reading with the woman named Sheila, I actually knew her and heard great things about her authentic gifts. She told me beautiful  things and my soul got uplifted, I had no other choice but to believe in the predicaments I had received. I knew I needed a change. 

In nine months I had moved to four places, I left  my job, I met the Rob and I am in the midst of starting my own dance practice.